full potential


If I am to be totally honest here, I don't feel like I have been living up to my full potential. In fact, I know that I haven't been. I'm selling myself short and in doing so, taking people around me down, too. Everyone always insists that I am not a burden to them and if I need to talk, speak up! I've been bottling things inside of me for months now because I didn't know where to turn and who to talk to. I felt like Jessica's already stressed out with school and that she didn't need to hear me complain about trivial things. She assured me that no matter how tied up she gets in her stuff, she always has time for me because we're sisters (not by blood, but through time and bonds that nothing/no one can break).

The reason I'm posting this is because if I put this out there in the public, I won't punk out on it. I will follow through and try to be the best me that I can be. I'm still learning, and with as clumsy as I am, there are bound to be some tumbles and moments where I want to give up, but I can't allow myself to do that anymore. No more woe-is-me moments and mental berating. I've just got to re-wire, re-focus, and carpe diem!

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  1. Well done you for being so super brave. I think you are going to be just fabulous. Love Elle xo

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    1. Thank you, dear. I don't feel so fabulous right now, but I'm working towards it :)

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  2. I totally understand.
    I feel like I'm in the same place. I feel like it's too much of a burden to talk to people about my feelings and what's going on.
    I think it's important to let it out in some form or to someone, but it's so hard to find someone that you don't feel like you are overloading on.
    I hope you are able to open up more, because I understand how hard it is not to.
    I think if you give it a chance to let it out, you will feel so much better!

    xoxo,
    jamie brooke

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    1. I try to write in my paper journal to get certain thoughts out, but sometimes it's comforting to know that someone has your back, you know? Even if they don't say anything, it's nice to know someone is there.
      I used to share everything with my boyfriend of four years, but then we broke up and I didn't know where to turn. I've got to figure it out and let it all out. Only then will I be able to feel the weight lifted off of my shoulders.

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