turn on the light


Last night, I had an epiphany. There is something about the quiet that allows me to think better (although, according to the Jonah Lehrer book I'm reading, more distractions can cause greater insight). I just wanted to start over. I had the insane idea to delete everything-- my twitter, my tumblr(s), my facebook, even this blog...yes, I had a crazy moment. As I thought more, I realized that I didn't need to be that extreme to start over. I just needed something small to restart my brain (and my life). I don't know if you can tell, but I am in a major rut. There was a respite when I was in California and inspired by all the new things around me. That was amazing, but I can't leave town every time I need to be inspired. I wish I could; that would be wonderful! I decided that I just need a little bit of organization and positivity.


The first picture is of the new journal I've started to write in. I have kept a paper journal since I was seven. I remember (and still have) my very first journal, which I got for Christmas one year. It is a small square white journal with a lock and a pattern of rainbow hearts on it. I spelled the word basement phonetically so it actually reads baseMINT. It makes me laugh every time. My last journal was full of a lot of negative things and thoughts. I would try to purge things from myself and it all came out so negative. I have grown sick of it. I think negative things sometimes. It happens. I'm not going to prevent myself from not being honest in my journals, but I need to spin things so that they are more positive. Maybe then, I will feel better and be more motivated to go out and do things. I'm a homebody. I can't help it. My mom is always scolding me, though. "You're too young to be like me." Rather than having that be a weekly conversation when I see my mom, I'd like something new. I need something new. So, here's to new beginnings and getting those ideas that push you ahead.

The above picture is another thing I am working on, which is to stay organized. I have my features of my blog tabbed in the composition notebook so I can jot down ideas and plan ahead for my blog. The purple journal is where I handwrite all of my articles I write for Inner Condition. I like to write everything out so I can see my mistakes in my handwriting and when I type it out, I edit as I go. I started using these tools at the beginning of the month and they have helped immensely. Organization & motivation are key!


1 comment

  1. It's funny that you mentioned Jonah Lehrer, because I just listened to this wonderful interview with him: http://www.kqed.org/a/forum/R201204041000

    Now I want to read his book too!

    I totally related to what you said about wanting to start over and delete everything - a fresh start, a clean slate... I feel like that too from time to time too. And I also have many journals of negative writing and complaining and worrying that I hate looking back on! Maybe I should paint over the unhappy pages...

    Thanks again for stopping by my blog. :)